Realistic Idealist

HALAGA -PNE

2009-02-25T04:01:00.001-08:00

Umiiyak ka na naman
Langya talaga , wala ka bang ibang alam
Namumugtong mga mata
Kailan pa ba kaya ikaw magsasawa
II. Sa problema na iyong pinapasan
Hatid sayo ng boyfriend mong hindi mo maintindihan
May kwento kang pandrama na naman
III.Parang pang TV na walang katapusan
Hanggang kailan ka bang ganyan
Hindi mo ba alam na walang pupuntahan
Ang pagtiyaga mo dyan sa boyfriend mong tanga
Na wala nang ginagawa kundi ang paluhain ka

Chorus:
Sa libu-libong pagkakataon na tayoy nag-kasama
Iilang ulit palang kitang makitang masaya
Naiinis akong isipin na ginaganyan ka nya
Siguro ay hindi niya lang alam ang iyong
Tunay na halaga

IV. Hindi na dapat pag-usapan pa
Nagpapagod na rin ako sa aking kakasalita
Hindi ka rin naman nakikinig
Kahit sobrang pagod na ang aking bibig
V. Sa mga payo kong di mo pinapansin
Akala mo’y nakikinig di rin naman tatanggapin
Ayoko nang isipin pa
Di ko alam ba’t di mo makayanan na iwanan sya
VI. Ang dami-dami naman diyang iba
Wag kang mangangambang baka wala ka nang ibang Makita
Na lalake na magmahal sayo
At hinding hindi nya sasayangin ang pag-ibig mo
VII. Minsan hindi ko maintindihan
Parang ang buhay natin ay napagti-tripan
Medyo Malabo yata ang mundo
Binabasura ng iba ang siya’y pinapangarap ko

Oblivion

2009-02-02T06:07:00.000-08:00

*poooof*

Then you're gone.

Stress reliever 101.

2009-01-28T03:01:00.000-08:00

...because some things are best kept secret.

Too many things to say, so little time. Where the hell do I start? Random teaser....

*What happened to us? We were oh-so close before. Where are we now? Admittedly, part of it was my fault. I lacked in reaching out to you. Hopefully, we get to fix things, whatever it is that needs to be fixed.

*You are undoubtedly one of my regrets. A friend told me to quit pondering on the maybes, the could have been and other what-nots, but there are times when I can't help but think of it and what could have been.

*Was it a mistake trusting you? Were those really your reasons? Or you really didn't want us to happen for some unknown triviality?

*I don't get you people. Quit acting concerned if that's far from what you really feel for me. I don't take crap from other people.

*There's this distance between us. I want to know why, and I know we can't be as close as before but somehow I feel you have something against me. I wish you'd tell me what that is.

*You, person, you. I almost gave up everything for you. Good thing I didn't, I'm still sane and for some reason my brain cells are still working on my side. Don't keep me hanging. Quit the inconsistency. It's killing me.

I may not show it, you may never know it but I do have a lot of angst and pent up emotions. Maybe someday, one day I might find the answers to my questions and maybe then I'll have the courage. But for now, this all remains in the realms of cyberspace.

Fresh start

2009-01-21T09:24:00.001-08:00

A shot at a new life?

Lately, I have been feeling more confused than ever. So many pent up thoughts and emotions, I just need to let it out.

Why can’t life be as easy as creating a new blog? Once the old one gets so messed up, just delete it with one click and gone are the memories of the yesteryear. And poof!, here comes a new one. Dang. But since life does not work that way because you cannot just end life and start a new one completely from scratch (actually according to my professor it is possible, and he actually believes that it happens, but reincarnation is a totally different subject matter), I just made do with making a new blog. This new blog will be my new veil, for being free and just spill out my thoughts without worrying about receiving any unsolicited feedback. But what the hell, this is a blog so no matter what I do, I will receive unsolicited feedback. Grar. I guess I just miss writing without thinking of pleasing or worrying about displeasing anyone. Damn, I am such a contradiction. And this is becoming so randomly confusing, pretty much my state of mind right now.

Oh hell, I honestly do not know what to do with my life. :s